I so relished the decade of my fifties. I seemed to “fit in my skin” and enjoyed being able to serve God, especially as a volunteer teaching ESL (English as a Second Language) and working with refugees.
But the year I turned 56, I came down with Fibromyalgia/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Even though I argued with the doctor that I was too young, I even developed shingles along my right rib. (As I watched the horror of the 9/11 attacks, I kept a heating pad over my rib pain–as hot as I could stand it.)
Year after year, I suffered. Part of the time I couldn’t even read and retain what I’d read. I needed pain pills to even get out of bed. Wearing normal clothes hurt. I slept 12 hour nights and still needed naps.
I’d prayed for God to heal me, reminding Him that I’d be more useful if He would. That I enjoyed serving these new immigrants, and was good at it.
So I wouldn’t feel useless.
The mother of two neighbors died suddenly. She’d been a vibrant member of her family. I asked God why he took her and not me. I’d become a burden to my family. I felt worthless.
During this time, my Bosnian “practice grandchildren” were discovering Facebook, which was fairly new. I knew that girls of a certain age had been pretty vicious at school, so I joined Facebook as a way to keep track of the “friends” on Dzenaela’s page, ask questions, and caution her.
Then my high school classmates began to make plans on Facebook for our 50th year reunion. Facebook turned out to be a handy way for me to stay in touch with people I could no longer have lunch or coffee with. And a way to share old family photos and stories.
Then I learned about Operation Christmas Child. I started out small, not many boxes in 2003, as shopping was almost impossible. But I began to collect items, just a few at a time, all year long, so that I could assemble the “shoebox gifts” to be shipped in November to needy children around the world.
I’m still doing Christmas shoeboxes, still shopping for them little by little all year long. This is the week they are collected in Iowa, then trucked north to the Twin Cities where their overseas destinations will be decided. I got special labels so I can learn where these are headed, and I can pray for the children there who will received them.
What a blessing to be able to serve in this small way.
I smiled at your phrase, “practice grandchildren.” I’ve never heard the phrase before, but it’s wonderful, and immediately understandable.
A friend in California fills shoeboxes for the same organization all year long. I’ve never done that, but here in Houston, home to so many sailors from around the world, the International Seaman’s Center also collects shoeboxes for the men and women, and many of us contribute. Even big people need a little remembrance when it’s Christmas and they’re far from home.
Love your shoeboxes for the Seaman’s Center!
From reading your prior posts, your Fibromyalgia/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is mostly under control now?
Operation Christmas Child sounds like a great program to help bring a little joy to a child in need. Reading about it reminded me of when my dad used to prepare Christmas boxes for the prisoners in the Coos County jail. I’d forgotten all about that until I read your post.
Cryotherapy helped me get off daily Tramadol! It’s helped so to have brain fog lift, but I’ve said yes to too many things lately (it was such fun to be able to say YES), that overdoing will bring back symptoms. I’m still a mess, but I’m a happy mess!
I hope people still prepare Christmas boxes for prisoners, to remind them that they’re not forgotten.
As long as you’re happy!
I don’t know if the Christmas box tradition is still in place. I expect many things have changed at the jail, but hopefully the prisoners are getting some kind of ministry.
I admit to liking being useful!
So do I!
You are inspiring! Thank you for all you do 🙂
Kind of in a different chapter now, but I’m sure don’t get bored! Thank you, Sharon.
So sorry that you were so sick along the way. So proud of you.
Proud of you!!
I also have fibromyalgia and I do Operation Christmas Child as well! It’s become a passion for me and I look for deals year round. This past November I contributed 15 boxes.
Sure helps to feel useful, doesn’t it!